Post by Aziza on Jun 8, 2011 0:41:13 GMT -5
Ah! Okay, so i didn't expect this to happen, but i'm pretty much suffocating unintentionally. Probably the biggest birthday party of my life is like... 4 days away, and i still have to write a speach, verify that a bunch of friends are coming, make sure i got a DJ, my dress is still at my aunt's house because my mom keeps forgetting it and said aunt lives seriously far away, still at war with my mother about shoes, email said DJ about shit, oh, and did i mention how i am a complete and total epic fail at speach-writing? And freak out and want to hide when i'm put in the spotlight, which i will be?
So, yeah, spazzing out, plus i hate my family sooooo much and.... yeah, issues >.>
So, me=usually stressed, which kinda leaves me museless, which epically sucks, so it leaves me absolutely bored, plus my internet likes to randomly quit on me, and both my laptops are bitches and like to randomly shut off or freeze on me, or just like to stop getting the internet signal, so i've lost a few posts and apps for a few sites and i wanna kick a wall in for it.
And did I mention my brother being an annoying ass who needs to go die in a hole somewhere?
Oh, and then, i need new meds, because the ones i'm on make e reeeeeeeally drowzy, so i'm lashing out and bitching more often cuz i stopped taking them. And then my dad lectures me for that too, and then my mom starts up, and i start feeling like i'm being cornered with nowhere to run all over again, which is suffocating, so.....
Yeah, trying to chill a bit, don't wanna snap at anyone, so my ebook is taking most of my attention and distracting me from all the pressure.
That's what's been happening, is happening, and i'm a spaz. I'll have another go at the second half of my egyptian's history (she's not "formed" enough in my head for her to be effected by what muse i have very much) after i finish the last 81 pages of yet another book... if i don't decide i wanna read another.... reading kinda distracts me... but it chills me out and makes me happy, so all is good
I'm sorry, but i'm freaking, and that doesn't help anybody >.<
So, yeah, spazzing out, plus i hate my family sooooo much and.... yeah, issues >.>
So, me=usually stressed, which kinda leaves me museless, which epically sucks, so it leaves me absolutely bored, plus my internet likes to randomly quit on me, and both my laptops are bitches and like to randomly shut off or freeze on me, or just like to stop getting the internet signal, so i've lost a few posts and apps for a few sites and i wanna kick a wall in for it.
And did I mention my brother being an annoying ass who needs to go die in a hole somewhere?
Oh, and then, i need new meds, because the ones i'm on make e reeeeeeeally drowzy, so i'm lashing out and bitching more often cuz i stopped taking them. And then my dad lectures me for that too, and then my mom starts up, and i start feeling like i'm being cornered with nowhere to run all over again, which is suffocating, so.....
Yeah, trying to chill a bit, don't wanna snap at anyone, so my ebook is taking most of my attention and distracting me from all the pressure.
That's what's been happening, is happening, and i'm a spaz. I'll have another go at the second half of my egyptian's history (she's not "formed" enough in my head for her to be effected by what muse i have very much) after i finish the last 81 pages of yet another book... if i don't decide i wanna read another.... reading kinda distracts me... but it chills me out and makes me happy, so all is good
I'm sorry, but i'm freaking, and that doesn't help anybody >.<
