POROROKA, u'yara ana(wip

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u'yara anapororoka

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" taste me, drink my soul
show me all the things
that i shouldn't know
and there's a blue moon on the rise"[/center]

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~ my cbox name is :
Bella
~ how did you find us?:
Delta
~i also play:
Mel, Regina, Elena, Hailey, Stravos, Cal, Jocelyn, Shannon

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~ my name is :
u'yara ana pororoka
~ call me :
yara

~ i am :
sixteen
~ born on :
April 12, 1995
~ my twin :
Selena Gomez
~ gender :
female
~ i like :
boys
~ species :
shifter
~ type :
awesome kind
~ animal form :
jaguar

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~ about me :
Deep down, U'yara is a good person…or she at least tries to be. Though like everyone else she is not perfect. She comes across as very distant and shy, afraid of losing control of her animalistic nature…she rarely allows herself to get close to people. U’yara has a bit of a temper issue, something that wasn’t an issue until she started shifting. It always took a while to upset her, but when she was upset…it’s rather hard to calm her down. Now however, when she gets upset…her animal nature takes over and when that happens, no one is safe. U’yara is like your typical teenager…except for what she is…and sadly because of her lack of self control, she sees being a shifter as more of a curse than a blessing. Aside from her temper issues, U’tara is easy enough to get along with.

~ my family :list family members here, age, species and relationsip (ie brother, sister, father, mother)

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~ i love : 3+ likes

[/color]the outdoors
[/li][li][/color]when she is in control
[/li][li][/color]the rest of the pack
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~ i hate : 3+ dislikes

[/color]herself(or her animal self)
[/li][li][/color]that she has to be so careful around everyone
[/li][li][/color]vampires
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~ history :
3 paragraphs atleast. we expect atleast one handred words for each century after the initial 3 paragraphs.

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~ role play sample :
She was weak..she was weak and a burden to everyone around her. Regina by no means missed being a vampire, she hated herself when she was like that...but she also hated herself right now. At least when she had been a vampire...everyone had been safe from her; she had stayed alone..only being around her family when she had to. As a vampire no one needed to protect her, that was the one and only thing she'd ever miss about that. Regina hated being alone...but wouldn't that be better for everyone else? Now that she was human again, she needed to be protected and she hated that. Because no matter what she said, when it came down to it...there's nothing that she can do. Probably half the pack either wants her dead or just gone...and the Devilles, they'd feel the same way once they found out about her. Deep down, it wasn't her family's approval that she wanted...she didn't care about them anymore. It may have seemed heartless...but that's exactly what a Deville was. Selfish, and cruel...putting their own needs above everyone else's.


If or more correctly when they found out about her, she was going to face them alone. It's what she had to do...no one else was going to die for her...because of her. Regina couldn't stand another life on her hands...That's why she agreed with them..she understood Arnon's hatred of her and she felt horrible for why he disliked her. His own Mother...Regina had met her and though she hadn't known her very well...she hadn't deserved what happened to her. Regina had to nearly bite her tongue to keep from responding at first. So many bitter remarks had come to mind, yet she simply couldn't bring herself to say any of them. Things hadn't been worse since she had come back...she highly doubted everyone would agree with that. "I'm sorry..." Her voice was soft, barley that above a whisper. The apology was for many things, some that she couldn't explain. For everything that was happening...for all that had happened, everything she had put him through.


She lowered her gaze, for a few moments she was unable to look at him. Regina should have been grateful for what she had now...once a vampire, it wasn't supposed to change until she died. Yet somehow here she was very much human and with Yasha again. Though she couldn't bring herself to be truly happy, the guilt was far too much to simply ignore. It was a continuous...never ending cycle. She felt guilty, which in turn made him feel bad; and that only made her feel worse. Maybe she really was just crazy, but something over the years had put a wedge between them. She used to be so open with him, but anymore...she found herself holding back. Intentional or not, she just didn't want to burden him with her and her problems.


There was some reluctance behind her actions, but nonetheless, she slowly nodded her head as if to say she understood. She'd be lying to him, but most importantly she'd be lying to herself to claim that it didn't bother her. It was confusing, the entire situation she found herself just as torn as him. They say if you truly love someone you should let them go, and that's exactly what Regina should have been doing right now. It was obvious everyone would prefer him to be with Rj, it'd probably be a lot easier for him too. But Regina also knew that she couldn't live without him, she had survived and kept going before...but she knew she couldn't do it again. However...she would leave for him and only him, if it was what he wanted. "You just need to stop worrying about us.. Forget about our feelings and think about what you want..." She began, pausing to collect her thoughts...she was doing her best to look at this without being honest, forgetting the fact that it was her heart on the line.


"It's not going to be easy...but it's the only way you'll be able to figure anything out. I just want you to be happy..and I'm she feels the same way..." She moved her hand taking his within her own for a moment. She loved him, and because she loved him...she wanted him to know that she'd accept whatever he decided. Regina didn't know Rj but she didn't think wrongly of her...from the sounds of it she had kept Yasha alive...been there for him when she couldn't. Whether she would ever know it or nit, Regina would never be able to repay for that. She was so set on focusing on him and what was best for him, what he wanted. Hearing his next question, it caught her by surprise. What does she want...? "They...aren't my family Yasha...I mean they are, but they don't care about me...the only time they were almost happy to have me around was during the war...but I wasn't family, I was just another pawn Danna didn't care about. I finally realized no matter what I did...I could earn their respect, but not their love. My Mother is the only person who did..who does care, but she'd never turn her back on my Father." It was a lot to just spill out like that...but he needed to understand just where she stood. The Devilles weren't her family, they didn't want her...and so she couldn't let herself continue to care about them.


She sighed, wanting to answer him and yet she wasn't entirely sure what to say. "I just want things to be easier...I don't want you to have to shoulder all of this alone..." She wanted to help him...she wanted to be able to finally look out for herself. "It'd just be so much easier if I wasn't just a human..I mean at least you wouldn't have to constantly worry about me..." It was a hopes dream...a shifter was born that way and so she could never be one...a vampire was the only way she could be stronger...but that wasn't even an option, she'd sooner die than become a vampire again. Regina finally lifted her head once more, her eyes softening as she focused upon her face. "I don't believe that..." There was so much more she wanted to say, that she needed to tell him. For the moment words escaped her, she remained in silence letting him move her so that he could get up. At first she thought he was going to leave the room completely.


He moved as far from her as possible in the room and in an instant he had transformed. The growl other than being really loud hadn't bothered her. She wasn't afraid at least. "I decided what I want...most of all..." She waited until he got closer to her before continuing. "I wish you could see yourself the way others do...the way I see you...Your not a bad person Yasha, people make mistakes...I've never met anyone like you. Your kind and strong...you see the very best in everyone and I just wish you could see that about yourself..." She wanted to make all his pain go away, she'd give up everything in the world a thousand times over if only for him to be happy....

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